to get a life or to not get a life that is the question

from blogging, and from basic observation of self and surroundings, i've noticed that i tend to switch between two modes:  a.) too much going on to juggle it all and b.) bored, idle, and lazy.

now the self improvement police would inevitably argue that this observation calls for an overhaul of my organizational strategies, and an establishment of methods and routines that can always keep me occupied  without laboring me with episodes of stress.

shut up self improvement police, you don't know me.  step off.

this week has already guaranteed itself as a weird one since it is the first time i'm alone at steve's and my place.  so far it's way less awesome than being with steve at steve's and my place.  since his departure on sunday afternoon, i have watched the entire third season of downton abbey (good and all, but unfortunately too slow between all the moments of tragedy... let's be honest, who really cares about bates enough to make up for killing off sybil and matthew? not me).  

i have also let the apartment turn into a total and complete dump.  it's funny how long stretches of my free time all get filled up immediately, but the short breaks in between turn into completely useless dead time.  well, i suppose not completely useless.  i fixed our tub drain and cleaned bert's litter box.  i also "fixed" my laptop for about 24 hours by doing a system restore.  this clearly wasn't the way to go, because now the laptop can't boot up.  yay.  sadly, this means those pictures of chicago and san diego are going to stay floating around in the world of someday-i'll-post-them.

it's just one of those unpleasant times where life layers a heap of guilt and anxiety, about everything that isn't getting done, on top of what should be a nice quiet week.

and since i don't need an extra reminder of everything i'm not accomplishing, i'm not going to bother posting my word count.  i'm not even sure what it is because i lost a couple hundred words to a computer that won't turn on.  *mope*

this week though

it's been crazy short, but sometimes three days can really pack in a punch of junk.

my laptop won't connect to the internet anymore (it also hasn't been able to shut down properly for months... which is super).  we found a good way to replace it on the cheap, but in doing so we have a lot of annoying installation crap to go through and we're still doing battle with windows xp and our quest for an ethernet.

yesterday i forgot my phone at work when i left the office and this morning when i returned to the grid with phone and internet access i discovered that i had angered people by mixing up wednesday and thursday of this past week when scheduling life plans.

on the bright side we just started watching breaking bad, so there's lots of meth-cooking and murder to watch while i'm feeling stressed.

oh and bert smells weird, like he needs a bath or something, which should be pretty funny down the road.

weekend.  now.

word count:  screw that i'm busy with my first world problems.

oy vey

well i had planned on starting the week off with a recap of our lovely lovely weekend (we spent saturday night walking the beach at grand haven and sunday at the frederick meijer gardens and sculpture park in grand rapids).  unfortunately last night my laptop fell victim to the most grrrr-inducing computer virus ever and i couldn't get my photos uploaded to dropbox / i am still mad, pouting, and not interested in a computer-related battle at the moment.

so i'll have to satisfy you with a tiny instagram style preview of our weekend (unfortunately, since i had my camera, i wasn't so camera-phone snappy).  since i'm at work while i write this, and not busy troubleshooting my computer in safe mode, i'm hoping i still have a laptop when i return home.

in attempts to keep a positive spin on things:  today is steve's first day of big-kid-grown-up-job work!  i'll have to wait and hear from him how the new job is, but i am one pretty proud lady to have such a smart, handsome professional on my arm!

and as a super friendly public service announcement.  make sure to watch out for the FBI moneypak ransomware virus.  apparently i am far from the only victim of this garbage.

dear self:  why did you think going back to pc was a good idea?

(in all fairness if a mac got a virus like this i probably wouldn't have the option of troubleshooting my computer in safe mode, but lets not joke and pretend a mac would have gotten this stupid virus in the first place).

ugh.  somebody's got a case of the mondays.

spoiler alert: it's me.